20081120

學弟給的= =



我馬上把小酸真提高的水準下降五個百分點= ="

20081117

流浪記



原唱:紀曉君

作詞:紀曉君 作曲:紀曉君 

我就這樣告別山下的家
我實在不想輕易讓眼淚流下
我以為我並不差 不會害怕
我就這樣自己照顧自己長大
  
我不想因為現實把頭低下
我以為我並不差 能學會虛假

怎樣才能夠看穿面具裏的謊話
別讓我的真心散的像沙
如果有一天我變得更複雜
還能不能唱出歌聲裏的 puyuma

怎樣才能夠看穿面具裏的謊話
別讓我的真心散的像沙
如果有一天我變得更複雜
還能不能唱出歌聲裏的那幅畫


小酸真來說說~

我只能說,原住民同胞真的很有音樂細胞~
這個版本是楊宗緯與盧學叡爸爸在 星光同學會的現場演唱會版
你會聽見盧爸爸豪放渾厚且富有感情的聲音
你也會聽見,楊宗緯清亮完美的哭腔呈現

說真的...很感動捏~


當然,如果再聽過紀曉君的版本...
真的非常感動捏~
我都哭了說....


最近不知怎麼了~
超容易被感動的!!!

20081116

甜甜圈

五歲以前我是到處流浪的。

用流浪這兩個字,好像有點悲慘...但卻很實際。我在三阿姨家住過也在二阿姨家住過最後回到了小外婆家住了一陣子,但是印像最深的是在二阿姨家,因為二阿姨家後面養豬...很臭,前面賣米還是米糠?我已經分不清楚了。我只知道晚上要洗澡的時候要經過豬圈,豬在晚上叫的聲音很可怕....我很怕!!!但是二阿姨很疼我,二姨丈更疼我。比較起來...豬有好像沒那麼可怕。因為表哥表姊都大了外出求學或是工作,二阿姨在家養豬順便養我!!媽媽那時候是職業婦女,白天在學校據說晚上下班會去磚窯幫忙(這是側面打聽到的消息,我老媽沒有正面承認過。)我猜想爸爸小學教師的薪水,要支付三個姐姐教育費是很吃力的,所以堅強又勇敢的媽媽把牙牙學語的我四處的丟,她的姊妹們誰有空誰就帶我,我從小就不認生所以活得很自在。

二阿姨家,在雲林縣一個叫尖山的地方,很鄉下。他們家有個很大的漏斗狀的機器,媽媽說二阿姨賣米..我現在想想應該是賣飼料的,因為尖山有很多人養豬,不過在60~70年代養豬的人好像都比小學老師有錢。所以我猜想...二阿姨家應該比我們家有錢,因為那裏很大很大!!!我在阿姨家庭前幫忙剝過玉米一大堆的玉米,像座小山,撥好久但是很好玩,這比舅舅家曬稻子好玩多了,因為曬稻子會皮膚癢,而且還會有綠色的臭椿象,運氣好的話,會抓的到金龜子,只是我的運氣一項都不好,總是在曬稻子那天癢的死去活來的!所以不曬稻子的時候我是比較喜歡在二阿姨家,因為二姨丈會帶我出去玩。

我生平第一次吃的甜甜圈,是在廟會的時候,二姨丈買給我吃的,還有棉花糖。我的媽媽對於零食是絕對禁止的我們家沒有零食這種東西,我在家沒有吃過這些奢侈品,我想我老媽是很節儉的人吧!畢竟,要養活4個小孩真的不容易。所以在有錢的二阿姨家除了豬這件事之外,我其實過的很享受。尤其是二姨丈,我把寵上天了...我只能說甜甜圈的魅力真的太大了,那雪白雪白的糖粉讓我想起了小時侯,會偷含家裡的方糖的幸福感。就是因為那雪白的糖粉讓我對甜甜圈的印象就這麼好了將近30年喔,它是我童年除了芭比娃娃讓我覺得最幸福的一樣東西了,這其中當然含的太多太多二姨丈的寵愛,我的氣球、我的棉花糖、我的甜甜圈甚麼都是我的,而且是不用求就會有,在二阿姨家真的好快樂喔!當然...除了豬以外!!

五歲以後,我就回媽媽家讀幼稚園了,到了小學以後我就很少去二阿姨家了。再過一陣子聽媽媽說二阿姨一家都搬到台中了,不會再回尖山。(據側面理解應該是二姨丈經商失敗吧!)我小學四年級時候媽媽常常騎摩托車載著我去一個不知名的地方,那是一個魚寮,有個老先生住在那裏,媽媽常會去送些飯菜或是日常用品,媽媽要我叫那個人"親家公"我才知道老先生是二姨丈的爸爸,70多歲了一個人獨居,顧著四五座魚池,住的地方很簡陋,沒有明亮的日光燈,老先生的眼睛也不太好。我在那髒兮兮的飯桌上看到的剩菜剩飯,都是很難看的顏色還有怪異的味道,像米粒一樣大的螞蟻大的嚇人,爬來爬去的...老先生就是看不見。直到現在老先生憔悴的模樣我還是印象深刻。媽媽是個很善良的人,我想是因為感念二阿姨在我小時候無微不至的照顧所以常常往親家公那裏送東送西的,而親家公還曾騎著大鐵馬到我家送過漁獲,回贈我們,他們之間的這互動如今想來都很令人感動。
但幾次之後就很少見親家公了。


後來我離家求學了,家中許多事情我都很少參予,可能是因為我最小也可能是我....這個以後再說。高中的時候見過二姨丈一次,是在表姊家...媽媽說二阿姨跟二姨丈離婚了,再見到二姨丈那種很陌生的感覺對應到他的蒼老異常的沉默都讓我很難適應。我很懷念那個騎著大野狼載我去廟會買甜甜圈那個帥氣的二姨丈...我好害怕,因為看見二姨丈的時候那種氛圍就跟我看見親家公的時候一模一樣。這些種種都很沉重...17歲的我已經能感受到那無情的命運是怎麼樣摧折一個壯年的心,甚是是如何摧毀一個原本幸福的家庭。
我是幸福的,至少我的父母親這麼堅持的維持著一家的完整,10年20年30年40年50年60年漫長辛苦幸福。


我感謝我善良的媽媽,在你身上我學會付出與回報。
我感謝二阿姨在媽媽最辛苦的時候,伸出援手,不求回報的照顧我。
我感謝二姨丈讓我吃到我人生第一個甜甜圈,體會幸福的滋味。

你知道甜甜圈讓我學會了甚麼嗎?

你知道幸福的滋味嗎?

你知道童年的回憶,會讓你懂得感謝嗎?

節拍器

節拍器,這東西,我想大概學過樂器的人都知道這是甚麼東西,一個像是時鐘大小東西,有個小鐘擺,唯一不同的是中間那"擺"上有個小小的可滑動的墜子,往上調鐘擺的速度會變慢,向下調就會擺的很快。這是個計拍子的機器。不得不告訴大家...我從小就討厭這樣東西。

而且是...非 常 討 厭 !!!!!!

從小我就是不明白彈鋼琴,沒有跟上那哒哒哒的聲音,或是超過那哒哒哒的聲音,我必然就會被要求重彈一次,然後是一次又一次,一次又一次,一次又一次....然後,我就手指就會遭殃,因為鋼琴老師會打人!!!說真的我就是不明白,在節拍器還沒有被發明出來前,貝多芬或是莫扎特惠被這麼要求嗎?沒有節拍器...難道就不能彈好鋼琴嗎???我真的不明白!!! 非 常 不 明 白 !!!!

是的,我得承認一件事,我很討厭彈鋼琴,非常討彈鋼琴...對一個6歲就開始學琴的我來說,學琴的這個記憶是非常非常糟糕的。

我錯過了每天6點的小甜甜與無敵鐵金剛,我錯過了一代女皇與庭院深深,我錯過了很多很多的卡通,也錯過了很多很多的八點檔連續劇....說真的,那時候,我真恨死了彈琴這件事,我不懂得去敬重那一架比我年紀大還要大的鋼琴,我不懂得去體會父母微薄的薪水買下的鋼琴用意,也很難估算父母親頃其所有供我們四姊妹學琴的費用。這些對8~9歲不到的我來說...實在太難了。

在當時,我只知道花仙子(註1)比貝多芬討喜多了,我關心的是武媚娘(註2)為什麼會去當尼姑,我最最在乎的是柏霈文跟章含煙(註3)最後有沒有在一起。那時候....誰會去管哒哒哒....的哈隆啦!!!誰會喜歡每天練一些跟同學一點交集都沒有鋼琴....誰會???? 我真的恨死彈鋼琴這件事了!

我的琴譜上都是小三角型,一個小三角型就代表這首曲子我這個星期沒過,我最高紀錄是有4個小三角型在同一首曲子上,這個意思就是,我一個月學不到一首曲子,而我每首曲平均都至少有兩個小三角型。我想...可能是我的心態影響了教了我們四姊妹長達10多年之久的楊老師(註4),小學四年級下學期楊老師不來家裡教課了,爸爸請了學校的鋼琴老師教我,還不到5年級學校的李老師也不想教我了。於是...我終於解脫了.....我再也不用學琴了!!!

說真的...當時,我隱約的覺得那種解脫有點不舒服...雖然,很開心不必學琴了,但是爸爸失望的眼神,還是深深的烙在我心裡。那種被放棄的氛圍其實並不好受。現在想想不再練琴的開始,似乎是爸爸對我失望開始,那個最疼愛我最寵我的爸爸,從小學五年級開始變的好嚴肅。我想可能是因為我青春期情緒不穩定....最終是我那種不用心練琴的心態,確確實實的傷了爸爸的心吧。但在當時,不必每天看著鬧鐘練琴,不必對著節拍器...還是有那麼一點小小快樂。以為從此可以開開心心的看電視,可惜..升上五年級我就邁入我另一個悲慘的補習階段。

我一樣,看不了電視。還是一樣看不了卡通....看不了八點檔連續劇。我唯一可以看的..就是剩下每個星期天的早上11點神力女超人,還有一個甚麼"心連心體連體的"忘了這部卡通了?慘的...還不止這一樣,我連李麥克(註5)都沒看全過。在小學以前,可以看電視是我人生最重要的一件事,想想現在好像也一樣...呵呵!!


直到現在,神奇的老鋼琴還健在喔,高齡38歲了,現在還健健康康的在二姐家陪著我的姪兒們過著快樂的童年,可愛的大穎如今已經國二了鋼琴還是繼續學著,而且是自己要求的,真好,家裡還是有人把琴繼續學下去。現在回到爸媽家還看見小時候很得牙癢癢的集拍器,雖然蒙著灰老態龍鍾的,撥動它...還是照樣哒哒哒的響,不可思議吧...我瞬間掉進了童年的漩渦裡。帶著歉意....深深的歉意...有點後悔...有點不知所措...爸爸媽媽滿頭的灰白,都深深的對比著我的年少無知。

你聽過節拍器嗎?

你也曾像我一樣回憶童年往事時覺得熱淚盈眶嗎?

你知道我的爸爸為什麼這麼執著要我學琴嗎?

你知道鋼琴的聲音很美嗎?



註1:有個鏡子對著花就會變成很漂亮的小女生
註2:一代女皇啦,潘迎紫小姐演的
註3:庭院深深,秦漢先生劉雪華小姐
註4:楊俊逸老師謝謝您的付出,感謝您的教導
註5:霹靂遊俠阿!! 那台黑色會講話的車子,叫夥計。

20081115

米香

這兩個字,一起看起來...其實是美的,而且不俗。比起周杰倫的新歌"稻香"有一那麼一點點異曲同工之妙,其中最大的差異,大概是....我的米是熟的,而周杰倫的米...還是生的。

以上說了這麼多...其實,跟我所要說的"米香" 一點關係都沒有,只太久沒有上來...想要傻聊一些,湊湊字數也好,讓人覺得我有幽默感,也是不錯的。呵呵~

回到正題,"米香"是那天在路邊,看到一台小發財車用一個倒掛的朔膠米桶當成招牌,寫著的兩個紅紅的正楷大字,就是這兩個字"米香",一時之間...想不出他究竟賣些甚麼,後來我發現...只要再加一個字,我們就很清楚的知道賣的是啥?

只要加"砰"....是的,你猜出來了嗎?

"米香" 是台語的發音,也是這個民俗小吃的名字,而"砰"則是形容詞,在米香將要完成之前,都一定會在向小砲台的爐具中發出的聲音,鬆鬆澎澎的米粒顆顆分明的像是保麗龍球,雪白雪白的每一顆都像顆珍珠大小。空氣中會瀰漫著淡淡的且溫暖的香氣,會取代等待時不知道甚麼時候會突然"砰"一聲會嚇到的緊張情緒。

小時候,最愛在那攤子前看著老闆俐落的倒下麥芽糖,把米香攪拌均勻然後,倒在一個長長的正方形板子上,仔細的推勻修整,然後屏氣凝神的靜待幾分鐘之後,俐落的一刀一刀的劃下整整齊齊的直的直的橫的橫的,然後鬆鬆的把米香鏟起,這就是我小時候最期待的一種零食,也是我老媽唯一會買的一種零食。

小時候即便到了現在,我喜歡米香製作的過程,都多過我戲歡吃米香程度。說真的...米香的時效性實在太短了,新鮮時候脆脆的其實也不怎麼好吃,要是軟了以後....那就更別提了(冷了的爆米花...可以想像嗎?)。只是...我老媽覺得那很營養。

寧靜的鄉間小路,早就沒有人沿街賣著"米香"了,我只是沒想到在這繁華的都市路口....會看見,這麼讓人回味無窮的這兩個字。小時候..賣米香的人來了都是"砰米香""砰米香"的叫賣,看得見車子,看的見老闆就是不會看到招牌...,也從來都不知道就這兩個這麼美的字。型音義都包含在裡面了....

台灣的語言文字有時候想想,真的很美~

你吃過米香嗎?

你曾在路口等待那突如其來的"砰"一聲嗎?

你跟我一樣嗎?回憶起童年了嗎?

你知道甚麼是米香嗎?

20081111

伍佰在幹嘛,我要暈了~~~


怎麼音樂越做越回去了。。。
MV也不知道在拍什麼,怎麼可以搞成這樣,天阿~~~~

20081109

I Was a WikiWarrior for Barack Obama by Barry Wellman

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November 8, 2008, ver. 1a

"Were it not for the Internet, Barack Obama would not be president," Arianna Huffington asserts ("How Obama's Internet Campaign Changed Politics" New York Times, November 7, 2008). She mentions blogs, YouTube videos (Will.I.Am, Obama Girl, et. al), citizen journalists catching gaffes, online community organizing, and direct email fundraising. But she doesn't talk about Wikipedia, my field of action.

As a dual US/Canadian citizen living in Canada, I wondered what I could do to help Barack Obama. Of course, I sent money; of course I sent in an absentee ballot. But more was needed - for me and for Barack - more than slogging through the streets of Buffalo (which was in pro-Obama New York State anyway).

I'm a computer guy, so I decided to become a WikiWarrior. I had become enthralled with Wikipedia a year earlier, and had done over 1,000 edits to new and existing articles. I decided to keep my eye on stuff about the Obamas. I felt that if I blocked non-sense from these articles, and added a bit of sense, I might help bring some light to curious and often-ignorant voters.

I shied away from the main Barack Obama article (or the John McCain): too many people were fighting there about large and small issues. Instead, I focused on Obama's mother - Ann Dunham - and step-daddy, Lolo Soetoro. I wanted to edit them honestly in a fair and balanced way and to keep pernicious propaganda out. I put them on my Wikipedia "watchlist" along with about 50 others articles, such as "social network", "The Bronx" and "Barry Wellman". I also "watched" articles about other members of the Obama family, but they rarely had major issues.

It was easy to deal with one recurring problem with the Ann Dunham article. Vandals kept inserting gross insults, such as: "She started sucking his cock. She had never seen colored cock before and became addicted immediately." (October 8, 2008)

These juvenile gross-outs were always made by unregistered Wikipedia users, identifiable only by their IP addresses. They were easy to fix by deletion (what Wikipedia calls "reversion"): I used a Wikipedia tool called Twinkle to do this in one key click. Often, I - or other editors - didn't have to bother. Automated program scripts. "Bots" (such as Huggle's VoABot II in this case), quickly found many gross-outs within minutes and revert them.

A more subtle problem was that some editors wanted to emphasize that the residential candidate was born only six months after his parents' marriage. After much editing and re-editing, the weary compromise was that the dates of marriage and birth were left in, but the article leaves it to readers to do the math. Similar situations happened when some editors tried to point out the age gap between 2008 Republican presidential aspirant Fred Thompson (born in 1942) and his second wife, (born in 1966), and when I tried to insert a sentence into the Sarah Palin article pointing out that she had transferred among five universities and colleges in the five years of her undergraduate education.

Some editors also kept wanting to show what they thought was her sexually-liberated and atheistic persona. These were editors registered at Wikipedia, usually with an alias name, rather than the hit-and-run gross-outers. Dealing with these recurrent edits was more difficult, as those who emphasized atheism were able to find a documented quotation from her early years suggesting this. (The criterion for including a fact in Wikipedia is that it be backed by a verifiable document.) However, a number of editors, including myself, were able to show that Ann Dunham was generally more broadly supportive of the humanist quality of religion. The clinching documentation came from her son's book, Dreams of My Father. There is an entire difference in tone between calling someone a "secular humanist" and an "atheist".

I kept wondering why some editors worked so hard at inserting such sexual and religious "facts". Instead of "Assume Good Faith", a key Wikipedia tenet, I came to "Assume Republican Faith" as the motivation of such efforts to demonize Obama ("socialist", "traitor") and his family.

This editing process goes on. Right now (November 8, 2008: 1213 EST), the section that gathers a variety of Ms. Dunham's spiritual beliefs is located near the end of the article. I just changed the section's heading from "Religious beliefs" to "Spiritual beliefs". I wonder if my edit will stick.

The issue with Lolo Soetoro's article was somewhat different. Recurrent demonizations of Obama by the dark side have asserted that he is really a Muslim (not that there's anything wrong with that). While the many warring editors fought this one out on Obama's own Wikipedia article, I faced a subtle challenge with his stepfather's article. Several editors wanted to emphasize Lolo Soetoro's Muslim-ness, which might well affect how people thought about Barack Obama. While there were documentary sources showing that Lolo was nominally a Muslim, they also showed that he wasn't actively practicing. That didn't stop several editors from attempting to make his Muslim religion a main focus of the article. One recurring attempt, still present, states that Lolo Soetoro is a member of the "Indonesian Muslim" category. I kept trying to reason with this editor, noting that few Wikipedia articles about Americans say that they are members of the "American Christian" category. I don't know if the editor was trying for anti-Obama propaganda or was just bull-headed. I finally gave up this skirmish, because the text of the article currently does not emphasize Soetoro's Muslim-ness, and the category that does mention it is buried at
the end of the article.

In none of these debates (sometimes called "edit wars") did I - or anyone else - ever say they were acting to help Obama or McCain. All phrased disagreements in terms of Wikipedian norms: "the article would be tighter without that," "you're providing undue emphasis," "we need to make the article more complete," "please document your facts," and "removed unencyclopedic writing about Sarah Palin" (i.e., too hagiographic). Without such civil discourse, cooperative editing couldn't take place. Once a Wikipedia administrator threatened to block me for a day, when I violated the "three revert rule" by repeatedly re-inserted my topic sentence about Palin's multiple collegiate hegira. (The sentence is still not in the article: maybe I'll try again.)

This is not to say that all editorial debates about these articles were clear-cut. My WikiComrade, Tina Vozick (who edits under the name "Tvoz") and I disagreed about whether Lolo Soetoro should have his own article in Wikipedia or be included in the portmanteau article, "Family of Barack Obama". I argued that a lot of people would go to Wikipedia for information about Lolo, and that it was important that there be a visible and accurate article about him. Tvoz argued that Lolo was not notable in his own right - "Notability" is a key Wikipedia criterion - and therefore should only be in the Family article.

So far, Lolo retains his own article as well as a cross-link from the Family article, but I am curious as to what the future will bring now that the election is over. I predict a lot more detail will arise, more calmly, about Ann and Lolo, but I will only notice this intermittently. I have taken Ann, Lolo and the Family off of my watchlist to get some rest. There were 84 edits of the Family article on a single day (November 7 2008): an overwhelming volume to track. So, I am taking something of a WikiBreak. After doing more than 500 edits on Ann Dunham, Lolo Soetoro, and the Family of Barack Obama in the past few months, I have removed all Obama-related articles from my watchlist. I need to bask in Obama's victory and get back to life. However, the dark side is always with us, so perhaps you could put some key articles on your own watchlist.

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